Its only teenaged wasteland….

-The Who

Things have never been so swell and I have never been so well.
-K.Cobain.

Im Looking California and feeling Minasota.
-Soundgarden.

“The Dwarves and Bloodduster were great.They played the Tourettes DVD before they went on and I miss you….”

I know that she does cause she told me not to come back……

Sometimes you have to look at photos to see who it is you are missing.

Big Old Echo and the Bunnyman style “Killing moon” out there tonite and I am hopped up on Chai tea and the Rolling stones so brace yourselves.

The weather finally broke today and I can say that it is the 1st clear day I have seen in months.We roll like twin 8 balls down Santa Monica bvd.I go for my wallet and find a sharp hip bone instead,6 months of craft dinner misery melting off my frame.Smogged out and surreal with so much running through my tinny echo laden head.

Ghetto birds 8 miles high chop,chop,chop past palm tress and I look up and smile into the eather at my lone star starved Da-nang skyline.”Gimme,gimme,gimme” Black flagging on my internal I-pod.To my left is the Hollywood sign and the email made me smile “Do you know where you are?” He wrote me from the other side of the world “Your in the jungle baby…..”

Gonna steal me a bunch of flowers and go out and Lay them at Mr Ramones statue feet for Me and Blackie.

Gonna get into as much trouble as I can…..

Sitting on a low wall out side a mexican bar thats name roughly translates as “The Crazy pussy”.I hold my sisters ciggerette as she runs into the store.It feels too good and I cant remember why I quit.I have emotional amnesia.Pizza is 99 cents a slice and the humanity dolls! Its all over the place like a rash.I am glutting on the human condition.And Manga comix where the girls keep feeling each other up in bathhouses.

Bleached out proud underaged mexican mothers with jesus eyes beneath feirce eyebrows.Thier babies dressed like the dolls that they have replaced in teenaged arms.Blue tattoos on necks,hands…. names and families and god all under the skin.”Sup’Ese?” and the deals are made faster than the human eye.The old lady at the bus stop screaming at nothing and I am having an overload of the senses after my snowbound months.

There is so much coke getting done that I get some kind of weird contact high and stay up writing while they all burn and turn around me,white powder fueled roman candles.I listen to the Rolling Stones and Gram Parsons winding silver with Miss Emmy Lou….anywhere is Nellcote if you really want it to be….. read the tarot over and over cause you now that I have got a million things that I NEED to know Baybee..

..sat in a stripclub watching the fights thinking of a fine handed guitar hero from my hometown who’s skills and wit break me….smirking and the flying fists and the long legs in front of me swaying at the tip rail….

…. and she told me and my sister “Life is not all backstage passes and rock and roll you know” …I whispered it to her as we swayed backstage yet again…No one could work out what we were laughing at.While they flirted with her I snuck under aged fans in and stole the bands untouched rider and gave it to the kids behind the fence.”Who are you??” they asked me as I gave them passes that I had “Found” “I am a fan like you” I smirked and watched them light up before their heroes.

We made a wish at Ozzys star down in Hollywood as winos pissed against the dumpser in the alley.I dont care how smaltzy it seems.I have never been cool and I dont give a fuck.I am all about the magic cause sometimes that is all you have got.

He said to me “What did they do to you?” and I know that its nothing that I didnt let them do on my twisted quest to hit bottom.I am a science experement.

I knew that you would all rise to the call.All the pics and sugestions have been blowing my mind.Keep the artwork comming and the more profiles the better.I have been getting alot of kick back off chatboards so keep it up,Go and check out metalsludge and check the forum there.Some one has posted so go and throw your weight in behind them.Who ever is nailing the Otep fans? I thank you.I wrote Murray at Drum with our exploits so keep an eye out for that.

So ! I am on the Strapping Behind the scenes ! Sooo Cool! The girl you see in the Tourettes t-shirt is a sweet solo artist called Marnie Mains.I forgot that she was wearing it that day till I saw the footage…So I write my toxic twin to say thank you and see whats up and Lo! The Strapping boys were in town last Nite doing their new filmclip!I was on the phone so fast! Dev has flown back out to Europe as as Byron, he has a show to do with FF so Gene Is here for a week and y’all know what that means! Hell will be raised! I am so stoked cause I missed out on Xmas here with him and the B* so I am happy.

3’s band Bombchild are playing on Friday so its all good…I will be there with bells on.And clothes…I am sure thats a visual that no one needed.

Rebuilding.
SF4L
Michele