Why am I not more zen?

If I was zen I would not have so much crap and moving would not kill Me. Colour Me dead. I should be like some rock warrior from the Planet “Fuck you Buddy!”. But no. I am a crabby inner city fan boy who could’nt find her ass with a flashlight and two hands. I dream of having this totally clean and military life. I own one of everything and when it falls apart I get a new one and get back in the van.Simple huh? God! Dont make Me laugh! I have still got the black converse that I got in the ninth grade.I cant seem to bring myself to hoik my last pair of Vans Disasters all because I got them the weekend of the ’99 Big Day Out and for some godforsaken reason they dont make them anymore..I also found A love letter from my 1st boyfriend [Hey Mike! So much for forever eh?], A Van Halen “51-50” t-shirt that fit me when I was ummm…12? ,2 baby teeth,My wedding ring,A Kerrang year book from ’89,A “My little pony” without a head… And I packed all this crap and moved it across town.

I have made a pact with my new roommate, The coolest drummer in the world [TM] that I will be strong and throw 5 things away every day untill my lfe is noting but a backpack,A cowboy hat and a steely glare.But untill then I will stay in bed reading the cache of shit hot comix that Blackie gave Me for Xmas before buggering of to europe for the next month to play with Turbonegro.I will be the Scarlett O’hara of metal.I will think about it tommrow….

Oh man…then you have my book collection.Let me rephrase that..My book collection has Me. By the well read short and curlys so to speak.All 3000 of them.Books that is. not pubes… Oh! and lets not forget the SUPER practical Seven and a half foot carved javanese oak and leather sofa that wants to move in with the Osbournes and cost me as much as a second hand Datsun in good nick.Mmmmm…. and the spare room that looks like some one threw a frag grenade into a St Vinnes clothing bin…A room full of clothes that I swear I will wear yet I pull on the same scummy outfits day after day….”Sloth thy name is Michele”…I got 19 days untill My other roommate gets back from OS so that buys Me a bit of time….

Next time? Next time I douse the lot in ligher fluid and flick the zippo without a second thought.Yeah and then burn to death trying to get My Black Velvet Elvis out of the hungry inferno….

Its ALL about Melbourne. Fuck I had a great time! We did an all ages show that was out of this world! and met a whole bunch of new sikfuks who have been sending me heaps of emails that have been most welcome.So to all at EV’S…Thank you soo much and to everyone who showed to all the other shows inc a killer midnight spot at the Espy.Leeroy fishboy and video king supreme got it all down and some of it aint real pretty but editing is not in the deal..its gonna be warts and all [Lemmy?] From here on in if someone shoves a camera in your face at any of our shows cutsik with your bad self and go to home movie heaven.!!

Hmmm…So I take it that I will be seeing you all at The Annadale for our last Sydney show for ’03…right? Cool! Thursday the 11th.Anxiety whispers and New Project are rounding out the bill.

Mikey came home with a heap of photos that he took when we did the Strapping show at the Metro. Cue me swooning in the kitchen! Gotta tell ya’ll, one of the TOP rock moments in my LIFE thus far was myopically squinting into the pit at Candys covered in blood at 2am on Halloween only to see one of the drummers who has turned my world on its sonic axis for more years than I care to remember! There before my blind ass was Gene Hoglen grinning like a loon throwing Me the bird and rocking out to us!My internal fanboy shat himself!!! It was,the whole night, a TOTAL fucking honnor.To play with Strapping and hang with one of the last gentlemen in rock? Wahhhhhhh!!!!!

Belive Me when I tell you that I never take it for granted. I never take Any of you as a given. I know that I am prone to ramble but…Fuck!All my life I have been a shit magnet and I knew that when I got into this that people were gonna love it or hate it.I dont seem to get alot of grey in my life…HA! That is the understaement of the decade!!.The fact that all you Sikfuks can see it,that you know what we are about, That it means what it means to you? Well shit! I finally got somthing right in my life!

By the time this hits your screens my mind would have been blown yet again…

The night that we played our 1st ever show at the sorely missed Iron Duke,We were the last band on the bill following killer sets from Neo Ezi and Kyser.Bonds were formed that night that are still strong today.Brad from Kyser is the mean fucker you see beating the crap out of me in the “Stand” clip!, Neo Ezi opened for us at the Detestimony launch this year.Hell! It was the night That it all started and it was magic cause I saw that it was ALL that I ever wanted…There was a room fulla poker machines out the back and while loitering round the doorway I met a girl who became a friend and possibly one of the staunchest supporters in all that followed.She was THE true sikfuk before we even had a name for it!

I think that it was in a long late night ramble to Leeroy that we were talking about what you do for music. I was doing one of my horrible long winded “Rollins is a God wahwahwah” Numbers and I was saying that it must feel amazing for him for anyone to see that their music has ment so much to someone that they have gone under the needle and had it inked in.Thought about what it must have been like the 1st time Sir Hank ever saw those 4 black bars on somone elses hide… I said that I couldnt imagine how it would make Me feel…

Well now I know. Jacobi? You are truly a sikfuk 4 life. Takes alot to take my breath away and you have nailed it!! Remember: LOTS of bepanthan!

Seeing that I am on a “You Guys Rule” Rampage I want to thank ALL the sikfucks who have thrown up the goats from all over the planet this year and have let us know that we are getting out there! I am not gonna be able to remember all the names but I got some shout outs before I flake out in the shower.Thanx for reading ,listening and showing up time and time again with your freak flags flying.

Melbourne.
Miss Karen Cocks, Mike V, The EV’S Sikfuks, The Street team, Andrew Hague, Sue at The Espy, Craig Hickey 94.7, Miss Alex at FIEND, Pj and Amelia, Bloodduster,No Idea, truckstop diner dolls,Abrasion, Glen and the peanutbutter men, The Tote and anyone else down south who has ever given a shit! Kudos to you.

Sydney. The SIKFUK nation, You know who you are and there are too many to name! Skot 09,Elle, pixie ,Amilie, Jarrod, Fernanda, Bolt ,Pocketrocket,Capt A,Kittywhip,Vegas 69, Little bit, One littlle Indian. Tin tin……… To all the clubs who have let us play .The Hard Ons,Mz Ann Thropik and all the cool bands that we have rocked with… Matt Reike, Rod Yates, Murray at drum, Meridith at brag…Argh!!My brain is melting! Ken West for taking a shot…

Toddski,Matt and Bryan In New York. The Brazilian Sikfuks. Carey and the London crew. Miss Sophia and Mr Adam In NZ. Gooch and crew in Tucson AZ. The Brisvegas sikfuks. All in NOLA. B* the gypsy.

Now if that dont run like the sloppiest MtV award speech I dont know what will!

Remember..As long as they spell your name right its all good……
S4FL.
Michele.