And I swear that I dont have a gun…..

-K.Cobain.
[File that under ” Yeah, sure buddy”.]

Burn the witch
The witch is dead
Burn the witch….
But bring me back her head.
-C.Love

Where were you?
Kinda like when people talk about JFK…[ I was on the grassy knoll if you give a shit…]
With Me it was the phone calls.That was the memory that I run with I guess… At that point in my life, my clockwork moves apon falling out of bed, was to hit the bodega under my apartment…”2.5 lt of coke. 1 Packet of Malboro reds and chocolate please”…healthy huh..Then back to the darkened cess pit that constituted my room till the sun set to chain smoke and write drivel and listen to music so loud that the deaf guy upstairs would bang on his floor. Just another day at the office right? Oh female Hunter S wannabe?Far fucking from it….
The light was dancing on my machine but I thought that it could wait. On with the bathrobe and sunglasses and out…and there it was.On the front of every paper. Dead at 27 just like the rest of em..17 messages on my machine telling me the bad news….

And here we are 10 years later. How the fuck THAT ever transpired I will never know. I think that I am still 14 smoking bad weed,on bad speed in the back of cars going nowhere….. but that is a whole other story.

Interesting how the whole world is looking at the good Widow Cobain dontcha think? … waiting with morbid wet glee to see what she does next. I dont give a fuck how far the world thinks that it has has come….Strong women? The real ones? And you and I both know that there are not many who will go all the way, so few willing to go that far, are wanted dead. Oh save it! If you are Keith Richards you get a medal for pulling a tenth of the shit that she does.

Vale Courtney! Hola! Says Me!
I think that she is great and I hope that she is gonna get over this horrible time and continue to go on and piss off the masses.

So? can I blame this bad mood of mine on the Kurtster? Hell, why not?…. Nanda came up with a good one….You will spot us down at Bondi. Sitting on the roof of her car, watching the sun set playing ‘Bleach” and raising blunts, 40oz’s and my very shitty guitar to the memory of one fucked up junkie angel who managed to change the world.

You Mr C along with many of the greats are missed.

I feel more of a kinship with the people whos music has changed my life than the people that I know. Got a great cabdriver tonite. He interjected “Fuck” 53 times into general conversation from Elizabeth bay to Newtown. Impressive to say the least. Almost made Moi look like a novice.

Ash had to put up with me being totally shit today.Poor cunt. Soooo much going on and I guess that we are all fully concious of the great Australian tradition of al-most getting the brass ring and then fucking it all up in the 11th hour due to an un-addmitted fear….People are not afraid of failing. They are afraid of success. Success brings change and with change comes the unknown and as we all know from too many Scooby Doo re-runs No one digs being spooked. I think that what I ment to say…hold on…ha! Got it! Change! people are shit scared of leaving their controled rat cages in case they get hung out to dry by their peers and so on….but I still stand by sketchy Scooby doo thing even if it doesnt make any sense.

What kinda sense are you after! Its 6 in the morning!

RIP too many great bands that have gone the way of the wolley mammoth. Far too many to name here. You know that all the bands that we started out with have split up? No shit…that there is some spooky action.

Before I forget. Kim SF? Thanks for the letter…I am making my way through about 10 fucking books at the same time but the stand outs are “Planet Joe” By Joe Cole who was Rollins best friend.[ RIP] It is a tour journel and very voyeristicly engrossing [” Madden! You literary perve!”] and “The Complete works of William Blake” Cause sometimes I like to make believe that I am smart. Heavy shit and a tad to religious at times but some of it is gold. Check it out…What do ya do for fun up in Brisvegas anyway or is it best not to ask…..

As was written by my very worshipped F.Scott Fitzgearld…” And So we beat on…”

What else are you gonna do? Really? Laser off my ink and sell used cars? I am gonna follow in the footsteps of the aformentioned great shits of rock. I am gonna keep going…Tooo many people to piss off and more people that I ever hoped for getting what we are all about.

Oh Melbourne Sikfuks please forgive us…. You have got no idea how much I wanted to be there with you and we will get there as soon as we can. You know as well as I that on this fucked up island that medoricty rules and we are broke assed dirty punks! If Ross got an afro and did a cover of that hell revolting “Angels brought me a beer” song do ya think that we would make any cash? Just an idea.Again to Big Mike V and Miss Susan and all the crew…I am so sorry. Dont give up on me yet……

Following the great tradition of watching Rage on a friday nite…Riddle me this sports fans? Why is everyone playing the same sloppy Stooges rip offs [Man! They wish that they had a zillinth of that Michigan magic!!!] through Vox Amps and strutting round with record deals….Conspirisay theories abound…mostly to do with gay sex and dotted lines….

I shit you not…I have just heard the same song 23 times! And why has no one [Ie :Iggy and or Bowie and or for that matter the crazed genious that we know as Brian Eno…Argh! Footnote..”Needle in the Camels eye” is a Glam classic!…sorry! got excited.] sued Jet for ripping off “Lust for life” when George Harrison [Rip] Had to pay out the Chiffons a fucking packet because the chords of “Hes so fine” and “My sweet Lord” were too close? Hmmmm?
And another question…. why the fuck do I know these things!?

[” Because you have no friends and are a totally uncool over read fan boy”]

Oh yeah! Thats right!

[God? Lester Bangs even??? Was that You??#@!]

That is the 64 thouand dollar question tonite.

Write Me cause I dig it and dont get none on ya.
Thanx for the memories Nirvana….
SF4L.
Michele